bttf

So we're not buying a house, is what's happening now. S has changed his mind. I'll be calling the estate agent tomorrow to withdraw our most recent offer.

I don't know what this means. I went for a long (by my standards) walk and thought about things a bit, but my thoughts just repeated themselves like when I read the same paragraph again and again and don't take any of it in. The main thought I had was 'I don't believe in soul mates anymore' and it made me sad, and I didn't know where it came from at first, but then I sort of worked it out. Here is the thought process I went through:

1) S doesn't want to buy a house
2) S doesn't want to buy a house with me
3) S doesn't think we have a future together
4) S doesn't love me
5) I'm pretty sure I love S
6) Ok, so we're not all over each other all the time and we don't shout about our relationship from the rooftops but who honestly feels like that anyway?
7) I think we both felt like that in our last relationships
8) Bollocks

And I bloody missed the end of Back To The Future for all that.

what a way to make a living

I'm really cross. Craig (at work) has just been asked by a female colleague to carry two boxes of paper to her car for her. Not asked to help her, just to do it for her. Her exact words were 'Craaaaa-iiiig, I need to some boy help...' and then she just pointed at the boxes and said 'Two please'. I just sat there with my mouth open, completely take aback by her appalling behaviour.

That suffragette woman off of Mary Poppins would be spitting feathers, I can tell you.

"Womankind, arise!"

it's a whole lot of fun

So S and I have been looking at buying a house. And we found one last weekend, and it was good. And we put in an offer, which was rejected. And we put in a higher offer, and it was also rejected. And so now I have come to the following conclusions:
1) Vendors are greedy and sneaky
2) Mortgages are a rip off
3) It's not possible to have a nice house in a nice area with a driveway for two cars and a garden for three cats
4) Housebuying sucks donkey balls

I suspect that these are well-known facts that I've simply never been privy to before now. But they make me a bit sad.

Gay, gay, gay.